Social network

I have few social network accounts

And it starts to bother me now

Why am I having few but not only one?

I started to try to escape from one to another one

From the most populated one to the less populated one. 

In the end I find out

what I need is only privacy

but still I need someone to see and share my life

It's soooooooooooooo

It's like having split personalities.

I have no idea what exactly I want

I've been counting so much that sometimes I even lose myself.

Isn't it nice to just being yourself sometimes?

But not everyone will accept who you are

That's why you need to disguise yourself to let the others accept you.

OR

Sometimes your true self is just so ugly that even you yourself couldn't accept it with an opened heart

So you make it up in a way that you think yourself so as the others would accept and like

BUT

The thought that pops up in your mind sometimes just couldn't be expressed directly as they'll horrify or annoy people. 

so I can only disguise myself among these crowds and hardly be myself.

pathetic.

but yet

I don't wanna make any effort to change it

Cause at least

no motivation yet. 

Jeeeeeeez...

Still

I'll walk among these social networks like I always do.

Sorrow

I actually found a glimpse of sorrow inside me today

Tears were shed in church today when Vivian's hands covered mine

and she gave me her blessings

At first I had no idea what she's doing

But as soon she spoken her prayers,

I knew what she's doing.

Where does the sorrow came from?

I'm not exactly sure.

Vivian and Leongyik are leaving soon

One to Russia and one to Canada

It's the sorrow because they're leaving perhaps?

It'll be very difficult for us to meet again when we're all apart from each other.

The world is small yet wide.

Distance between places and coordinates on the map maybe enormous in exact scale

But I do believe that distance between hearts will never be far away when we want it to be so.

By the way

I may seem cruel or realistic or whatever

Or I may be very bad in expressing how much I appreciate a friend who's actually always been around me

I just wanna tell you

It's not that I do not appreciate or care about you

It's just that I always believe that you'll always be there for me

That may let me forget that you need concern too

And I never know that that would hurt you. 

Please forgive me to be such a jerk.

:(

This part is actually dedicated to every friend of mine.

And please forgive me for being such ignorant previously if I did.

我相信

“我相信”

可以带给人很大的力量

第三学期又开始了

这个学期对我们来说很重要

（其实接下来3个学期都一样很重要)

是的

我迈入了成为senior的学期

这两个月下来

实习课、营、旅行

我过得比任何两个月都充实

我感觉到自己的变化

却无从形容

希望是好的变化

我对未来抱着很大期待

接下来一年半的行程

可以说是不容有差错的

最近在努力戒掉一整天挂在网上的坏习惯

算是小有成就

至少

我在放学后

会享受没有电脑的时光

那是以前没发生过的

哈哈

今天拿到了新眼镜

我患上了闪光

那是我怎么也没料到的事

闪光是没办法像近视一样痊愈的

所以

是时候照顾一下眼睛了

唉

旁观者

我们只是一个不知就里的爱情旁观者

我们本来就没资格说谁对谁错

我们就保持沉默好不？

不要再去评论谁对谁错

根据我们自己的观点

去责备我们认为错的那一方

那很没意义

反倒显得我们幼稚

被责备的那个心里会难受

责备人的那个

人品也会随着责备而堕落一些

做不成男女朋友、做个特别的朋友

两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢的人，

但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种，

彼此不能成为男女朋友，只能做个特别的朋友……

也许是为了朋友之间的义气，不能归属。

也许是为了顾及家人的意见，不能归位。  

也许是为了自己的前程，不能承诺。

也许是相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许是相遇太晚，彼此身边已经有了另一个人。

也许是回头太迟，对方已不再等待。

也许彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线……

不过即使没在一起，

彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉，

仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系。

但是彼此心底清楚，

对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞的满满的……

即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街，

还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

彼此有喜欢的人，口头上会说不吃醋，

心里却会觉得胃疼……

对方遇到困难时，

会尽全力伸出援助之手，

不会计较谁又欠了谁。

对方生病了，

会缴尽脑汁找药方，

恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁……

每个人这辈子，

心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，

很矛盾的行为。

一开始可能不甘心只做朋友的，

但久了，突然发现这样最好。

宁愿这样关心对方的心情，

总好过彼此生活在一起受伤害……

做不成男女朋友，

当个特别的朋友，

有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢

很多的感情，

都败在了现实的面前……

友情可以演变成为爱情，

爱情最终进化成为亲情，

彼此就将友情直接进步到亲情……

人生不过百年……

能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩，

能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手，

能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开，

能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！

珍惜彼此之间塌实的感觉

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