I was always thinking what life really is, or how should life really be, it is really subjective when you try to figure it out, it is different for everyone. It can be simple to make some people happy, it could be complicated as well for some people. People look at the same matter with different ways, I do feel like stepping away from it, but sometimes the flow just drag you in against your will.
Life is full of changes, isn't it? Things you thought you would never ever do, now you did it. Things you thought you would never ever fell into, now you're soooo deep into.
Life is always about give and take. As I grow up, I see the reality. Not only among friends, schoolmates, acquaintances, but also among relatives as well. Never ask for more than I deserve, and nor giving less than I should, and the one who should decide how much you deserve, is the only one God, the more you deserve, the more blessings you will have. It could stir up some questions if I posted this as my status in FB now, as I just came back from BTN, so-called brainwashing camp, but it's more liberal now, from what I've experienced, it's not that bad, I had fun, it's up to you about how you take and analyses the facts and theories they told you in there, no harm in knowing more, right?
It's important that I know how strong should I hold on my faith and the things that I think is right. A great experience I had in the camp was the debate during group activities. There was a topic which asked me to prioritise an aspect among politics, education, economy and social. Surprisingly, I was the only who chose social. I had to defend my stand, and it wasn't like anything I've ever experienced. Well, I used to be someone who was quite following the flow. I would felt lonely when there isn't anyone with me. But I realise sometimes I should just buck up with what I think it is right, I guess the moment I did it is just for my pride, HAHA! When I recalled back the experience, I think it was quite similar with what we could experience in life choices. When I decided firm that I'm going to stay with my choice, I never felt ever so peaceful, And I spoke like I never did, I'm never good in talking in front.
My inner is stirred and disrupted,
when I cant make my mind firm.
But once I've decided,
peace will just come upon,
and all I will do,
is just do what I could.
