忘恩负义

做人不可忘恩

在你指摘一个人之前

可曾想过他/她对你的帮助？

一个人选择沉默

有时不是怕事、不是默认、也不是无奈

而是选择不跟你一般见识

可惜我没那么宽广的心胸

去容忍你

Tithe and Mother's Day

I am excited to start this post right now. So, it was about today during the Sunday service. Yesterday noon before meeting’s lunch break, I looked at my calendar, I suddenly realised that I haven’t gave my pledge to our church this month, as I was out of town last weekend. Then I checked my purse, I was thinking: “Hmm... okay, still enough for another week after giving pledge…”

The calendar in this book... teehee!

Then during lunch break, one of my friends handed over a RM50 note to me, then I was like: “Owh ya! He owed me RM50 during our last karaoke outing. I was happy that I actually have extra money to give pledge. But it is actually not something extra, if you do the aftermath. Like people owed you money and you get it back again, it’s not an extra earning anyhow. But still I am happy, at least I don’t have to berjimat that much as I thought! Haha!

This morning during Sunday service, I took out the envelope in front of me to fill in for pledging purpose, then I saw this word “TITHE” on the top of the list. Then Michelle’s words during our last dinner struck me. We met for dinner before one of the prayer meetings to have the partnership commitment form signed, as I was accepted as a partner of our church.

One of the commitments is to give tithe, 10% of our income. I knew about tithe before this, but never thought of giving it as it never cross my mind. I am still a student and my allowance is given by my mum, and 10% of it, hmmm, I can do quite lot of things with it, of course, my personal stuffs, SO I will just give my tithe after I start to work la, that was what I thought. Then Michelle shared her experience with me, telling me that as a student, we still can give tithe, and she did so too during her college day, it is just about how willing are we to do so, and it’s up to ourselves. Allowances are still incomes, and if I think that RM50 is a lot, then when I start to work, 10% of my salary will be more than hundred, that is MORE, provided that if I found a job with salary more than thousand ringgit la, and praise the Lord that I know that He will find me a suitable job for me, as for He always have our life planned for us!

So I decided to give my tithe at the moment. I filled up the column for tithe and put in the money for tithe and pledge! Then I started to plan my weekly expenses, cutting unnecessary expenses, blablabla, until Pastor Kenneth started to preach. After service ended, I suddenly thought of one of Jesus’ word: “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing?” from Matthew 6:25. (Thanks to Catherine and Hannah in helping to find the exact location of this verse. =P) So I shook off the worries from my head.

Then there came my mum in her car to fetch me to Pyramid to pick up my charger from my friend. And we chit-chatted about my brother. As we chatted, she said she’s going to give me an extra RM50 for this week in case I ran out of money when I go out for meeting or what else. I was quite surprised, she is quite strict in my allowance, she gives the amount that we agreed on usually, and only extra when I need to buy necessary things which will cost a lot or I’m going on trip. This is the first time she actually offered to give me extra money for kinda no reason. I was thanking and praising the Lord in my heart.

And that is not the end of the story. After having lunch together and finishing off some of her things, she sent me back to hostel. And before I get off the car, she was talking on the phone, I thought she may be forgot to give me the extra RM50, so I wanted to go down without reminding her, because the money I still have is enough for me to survive for another week. When I was about to open the door, she stopped me while talking on phone, and actually handed over RM100 to me! I looked at her like I’m looking at an alien. She just nodded her head and hinted me to go down because she has to leave.

Praise the Lord for knowing our needs and providing us always! Amen!

And as I’m going to end this entry, I just realise that I haven’t told her that I love her. I’m not a person good in speaking, so I chose to let words to take over the role of tongue. So I will message her later. Haha!

Happy Mother’s day to every mum in the whole world! Sometimes us as kids may be hurting your hearts, but please forgive us for our ignorant as we are still learning the proper way to respect and honour you. We will never come to this beautiful world and be who we are now without you! May God bless every mother and mother-to-be! Amen.

自以为是

我们总是自以为是

以为自己看透了

在被迷惑后

才发现原来自己还是看不透这复杂的世界与它的居民

我们总是自以为是

以为自己绝对不会重蹈覆辙

在错了后

才知道自己原来根本没学乖

我们总是自以为是

以为自己总是对的

在错得无法补救时

才发现自己错得离谱

我们总是自以为是

以为自己能把问题处理得很好

在别人来替自己收拾烂摊子时

才惊觉自己原来那么不济

我们总是自以为是

以为自己放得下

在错过之后

才发现原来自己从来没有放下

我们总是自以为是

以为自己很坚强

在心伤痕累累了

才发现原来自己很脆弱

我只希望自己能少一些自以为是，多一些警觉性

❤

突然

选择扮演快乐的角色

是不想别人担心？

还是不想正视那点点的落寞？

有时觉得人生实在是太多无奈

随着年龄增长

在乎的人事物渐增

顾虑的东西也越来越多

大喇喇不计较的性格虽然容易被人占便宜

但谁敢说这样的人就活得不快乐呢？

世事除了可以说有许多无奈

也可以说无绝对

看事情不能只看表面

表面上和乐融融的一群人

也有可能在暗里各怀鬼胎

可悲

亦舒

尘螨爬上了床头的书格子

我想念享受读书的感觉

多久了？

我想念思想透过文字跃然纸上的感觉

又多久没真正好好斟酌文字，写篇文章？

中五那年尝试过写微型小说

稿投出去后

石沉大海

我不是吃这行饭的料

*窃笑*

眼珠子在书橱上徘徊了一阵子

《从前有一只粉蝶》

小心翼翼地读了几面

童年的感觉回来了

总觉得香港的言情小说较有内涵

小时候我沉迷于岑凯伦的小说

内容有创意

用词含蓄

但一针见血

其中最爱莫过于《婚礼》

封面插画仍残留在我脑海

可内容却很模糊

但那感觉我忘不了

内容架构紧密

表面上波澜不惊

可其实暗潮已汹涌

人物性格刻画分明

故事背景常设定于有很多被迫与无奈的时代

而结局

圆满却不完美

故事总结束得有点遗憾

犹如人生永远都无法完美

再来就是张小娴

她的故事都带有忧郁色彩

真实反映了人生很多的无可奈何

这些无奈被她的文字美化了

让我有时候只能微笑着摇头叹气

亦舒

我决定将我的空闲时间拨给你的《粉蝶》

哈哈

:P