everything seems going wrong

I'd been so hectic in this past week

emm

I should be hectic

but I don't act like hectic

and therefore,

my homework accumulates

I can use tonnes to describe it now

German, English, and other science subjects to catch up

otherwise I'll surely screw my final up

as my final clashed with my AS German

I know I can do it

just that I need more determination in resisting the temptations of having fun

I may had indulged myself too much after SPM

and honestly I never really being back myself.

seniors all had done well in all their exams and they're flying on next year Jan after they finish their practical in GMI this year,

2 months I guess?

All the best seniors,

although I don't really had deep conversations nor good relationships with them

but still they earned my highest respect 

because they survived INTEC for 2.5 years

and I hope I can see them again in Germany of course

I have doubts now

Can I really do it?

I never actually done something according to my own schedule

I used to prefer to be casual

but things can't keep on going on like that

I don't wanna ruin my own dream

the dream to study abroad

the dream to explore more about this world

and yes

I have the ticket already (Thanks God for that! )

it's just about how I reach the entrance

and I know that the only thing I can depend on is myself

❤Life is a journey rather than destination. Enjoy it. ❤